PANIC

I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO HAVE A PANIC ATTACK. I FEEL IT IN MY STOMACH. Sometimes idk if i should talk to my mom about it since its late. Shes already asleep but I need help calming myself down. Dose this ever happen to you guys????

Family/school

My aunt and uncle have left us for crazy reasons which has been hard for us. Ive been looking up pictures of them on google (Im not a stalker)and every time, my heart stops. Every time I come to blog I have so many ideas to write about but when I do I cant think of what I want to blog about. I know I barley have any viewers (0) But still I love blogging.Girls are weird, drama is way too much at my school like every ones like"FUCK YOU" and "YOUR A WHORE". Ugg so hard. All the boys are disgusting. One guy crossed his eyes shook and said "MAJOR BONER". SOOOO SSSTTTUUUPPPIIIDDD

Thabkgiving

Today im going up to my grandmas house in Washington for thanksgiving. I thankful for not having my moms family there. All of them except for my cousins are all sons of bitches. Excuse my langue but serious thing deserve serious words. Honestly for all I care they are motherfuckers. I know I know. "you are to young to swear!" but i dont care. I super excited to see them. Its been since Halloween which seems so long but it was 4 weeks ago. I've been thinking and I want to change somthing big like die my hair or cut it. Ive decided to die it. Somtimes i just want to scream "FFFFFFUUUUUUCCCCKKKK TTTTTTTTHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEMMMMMMMM" well happy Thanksgiving (;

About me:

• I have 4 dogs, Alba who is a pit bull terrier mix who came from a high kill shelter, Lucy who is a border collie corgi mix who came from the Indian reservation (she had tar all over her and her pee smelled like garbage), Meeka  who came from a breeder. She was a mama dog and she had 5-6 litters of puppies. Our last dog is a  8 month old chiwawa terrier mix. She also came from a high kill shelter. All her brothers and sisters where eaten by the mom, She was the only one that survived.

• I probably wont even have 2 readers by now but still this is something you should know. My friend last year sadly passed away from suicide. I dont care if you have questions about it. Im being open about it so all questions welcome! I have another friend who has so many cuts on her arms. Ive hade over 3 friends ether r say or have done something about committing suicide.

• I have severe depression  and general anxiety. Im only 12 and have so much heart break. I post all of that in other posts.

• I have one brother. He is 15 and having a older brother is super hard. Ugg I mean

Ill have picture of all my dogs tomorrow!

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